Your Life Only Grows Better By Growing Yourself… But How In The World Do You Do That? You Have To Enter Before You Can Return.

…the true life stories of one who no longer exists yet appears to be…

“I really have nothing to say,” you say, and yet you say what you said as you said it, and here we are listening to the silence of what was said. What say you?

quote by “Not you saying something that you said…”

Have you heard of Indra’s Net?

It’s more than a metaphor of a mirroring of appearances, though it is that as well. It’s a representation, a model, an inkling of what you are and how the world lives in you, while living outside as well.

A web intersects, infinitely, paths crossing over and over and over, at each intersection a jewel…

Each jewel of this net, is solely composed of the reflections of the jewels around it.

Isn’t that something…

For Members of the guardian and the guru all the wonder laid out upon your mind, your imagination, your brainwaves wobbling with weirdness, the ever unfolding conversation with what was, what is, and what may or may never come to be.

Here, we create a future by creating a past…

On The Web Of Creation…

On Addicted To Love…

On How nice that would be.

On Time

On Growth

On Reincarnation

On Sports

On Mystery and the Unknown

On Lucid Dreaming

On Dream Yoga

On thoughts

On Rejuvenating

On Acting

On Charisma

On Transformation

On Changing

On Brothers and Sisters

On Shakespeare

On UFO’s and Aliens

On Language

On Portuguese

On Learning

On Insight, Intuition, and Inner Knowing

On Travel

On Mediation

On Lying

On Honesty

On Imagination

On Film

On Being Turned On

On Sexual Attraction

On Sex

On Androgyny

On Misunderstanding

On Drugs

On Growing a Human Being

On Speed and Quickness

On Hurry

On Perfection

On “Perfect,” penso Ed Wood

On Health

On Wealth

On Fulfillment

On Thoughts

On Consciousness

On Unconscious and Subconscious

On Knowing

On Absolute Knowing

On Love

On Relationships

On Sex

On Fighting

On Art

on Beliefs

On Being

On Becoming

On Shadows and Light

On Singing

On Fear

On God and Gods/esses

On Spritituality

On Mysticism

On Synchronicities

On Spending

On Childhood

On Pets

On flexibility

On Not Minding

On Love vs. Liking

On Judgement

On Neuroplasticity

On Eyesight

On Aging

On Youthfulness

On Psychology of Possibility

On Miracles of Creation

On Creativity

On Self Worth

On Appreciation and Value Creation

On Assets

On Crazy People

On Boobs

On Sexuality

On The Future

On The Future Now

On Struggle and Suffering or Joy…

On Play and Playfulness…

On Resistance, Procrastination,

On Duran Duran, INXS, and Billy Idol + The Outsiders…

On Hallucinations and Perception

On Constructing Our Realities…

On Computers

On Augment Reality

On Mixed Reality

On Artificial Intelligence

On Flow and Focus

On Attention and Awareness and Mindfulness

On Hearing Hearing and Repeating and Recall

On Memory and The Mind

On Memory and The Brain

On Creating a Marvelous Existence

On Being Single and Celibate

On Being Single and Sensual

On Hurting

On Pain bodies and emotional holes in the flesh…

On The Senses

On Smell and The Discovery…

On Neurogenesis, Senescence, Stem Cells, and You…

On Being Present To One Thing.

On Choosing Challenges and Make The Rest Easy…

On Reading and Writing…

On Books

On Movies and The Movement Of Time…

On Feedback

On Infinity

On Coffee at Midnight

On Eating

On Seeing What Isn’t

On Dreams

On Dream Characters

On Talking To Nature

On Correction and Discovery ( front foot first… )

On Boxing and Being

On Relaxation, Vigilance, and Cognizance…

On Vision Quests

On Adventures Into Existence

On Nothingness and Emptiness

On The Tao Te Ching

On Racism and Futbol The Childhood Confusion

On Movies and Ignorance ( Fear and confusion, wonder and awe… Papa’s experience and mine, European’s and Route 66 and L.A. )

On Growing Mushrooms and Dying

On Psychology Internships On NDE

On Swallowing Spit and Inhaling Sex

On Choosing One Path For Acquisition and Learning ( Avoiding Jumping all over without learning… )

On Creating Assets of Timeless Nature

On Vagina’s and Sucking The Flesh…

On Flirting With All Of Life…

On Pot Brownies and Cheech and Chong…

On Musical Ignorance And The Wonder Of Discovery or What You Don’t Know…

On Being Drugged and Head Smashing Mysteries ( Charlies and Blue Steel Bicycle )

On Regrets and Resets

On Living 5 Days In One Everyday

On Awakening

On The Many versions Of You (i.e. People don’t know all of the things you have done or been through and how everyone had their stories, yet few ever know them… ) It’s amazing to realize and recognize that. I really love that about my mom and dad; they were someone before there was me.

On Being a Polymath

On Nothing Mattering And How Confusing That Can Be If You Don’t Know How Magnificent It Is.

On Cocaine and Alberto St. On Cocaine and New Years Eve

On LSD Ocean Pull and Cucumber Cocks and Hannah…

On Marijuana and A Buddhist Nun In Boulder Creek ( And the Right Handed Homeless Girl )

On Ballerinas and Mythic Grace

On Sex and Bloody Sheets and Being Okay With Whatever…

On Being Stabbed The incidental Pleasure in Portugal

On Heroin and Relationships At a Distance…

On The Rocky Horror Picture Show and Blood Flow

On 14 Year-old Fantasies

On Masturbation With Friends

On Stealing Midnight ( travels as a child in the darkness )

On Rape and GAD

On Wonder Woman, Down vests, and blue jean dreams…

On Death And Redundancy

On Authority And The False Voice of Certainty

On Fairytales of Your Own Making

On Questing The Unknown

On Recreating Reality…

On Beginning… Always beginning and then begin again, everyday…

On Rituals, Habits, and Routines and why we are so upside down.

On The Stupidity of People and Progress and Production… ( This will make you more productive… Gag! )

On Laziness and it’s power to transform your life…

On Being The Art Itself…

On Pizza…

On Results and being Done Already… ( You don’t want to take the car salesmen with you when you buy the car. You don’t want to take the ticket taker to into the movie with you to tell you about the movie. )

On Faith and Belief and Blind Faith

On Reading This First… I Don’t Know…

On 4th Grade Miss Yale, Joe Martinez, Head Injuries, and Reading…

On How Few Experiences Actually Make Up Your Life… And How None of That Matters But Isnt It Curious? Especially considerring how you choose to live.

On Being Paid For Your Art

On Choosing To Protect your Psychic Space and Those Who Influence Your Path

On Doubtville and The Party You Don’t want To Leave ( This is that place where everyone kind of forgot where they wanted to go and now they are… )

On Paradox

On Being and Becoming

On William James

On Thoughts As Feelings

On Vipassana And The Model

On Sleep aka Uncle Sleepy Head Style ( Thinking about sleeping when I want and really enjoying it. )

On Children Sized Adults, also Known As Family and Friends and Other People.

On Enjoying It All And Hating What I Hate which I don’t.

On Flatulance and The Farts You Miss and The Farts You Walk Away From

On Creating Your Reality And Inviting Those In While Aggresively Closing The Door To Others…

On Being Content For Others To Be Who They Are Without Wanting Them To Be Anything Else…

On Revisiting William James…

On The Library Child Opening The Book on The Future ( This was so exciting to me. )

On Learning For The Pleasure

On Teaching Myself How To Write.

On The Best Terribel Joke I’ve Ever Told…

On Dying With Laughter And Why Witches Don’t Wear Underwear…

On Writing and Being Me and Why You Now Have a Construction Of Who You Think This Creature Is.

On Laughing While Crying

On George Clinton and The P-Funk All Stars And The Columbian Sex…

On Life Dancing You and Music

On Acting and Chocolate Chip Cookies

On Metaphor

On Having a Mission

On Surfing and Seeing Day II

On Two Fears, Dropping In and Doing A Backflip..

On Obsession

On Being a Body and Being Embodied and Living The Respect To The Body Love

On Making Money And Meaning… Playing the Game while pretending Its not a game except with those who know it is.

On Dream Characters Who Aren’t Quite Right…

On Doing Your Best To Be A Creator Not A Critique..

On Not iving A Fuck and Reahearing The Fuck Out Of It.

On Why It’s A Good Idea To Scream At Your Girlfriend Once And A While ( Thinking Andi and The Car Ride )

On Why That One Girl Won’t Leave Your Mind… And That One Too…

On Doing Drugs and Enjoying It…

On Wanting What You Want Because Yu Want It And Everyone Else Can Go To Hell With Their Opinions Of You… 😉

On Letting It All Flow…

On Giving All Of Yourself and The True Joy of Being Vulnerable…

On Eating Before Bed…

n Causes and Conditions

On Questioning Everything and Why It’s Not Fore Most ( people are exhausted by the very thing that excites you. Why this, what of that, tell me more, how does this, show me this move one more time, I have to ge this, and again… )

On Facials…

On Your First Fart In Front Of Yur Lover…

On Suicide and Friendship

On Being a Ghost…

On Enlightenment and…

On My Impending Death…

On Narcissm and How Wonderful It Can Be… The Story f Echo and Narcissus.

On Going The Wrong Way…

On Spankings And Childhood Troubles

On Debt and The Hilarity That Pursues…

On Lying and Insincere Clients… And why it’s perfectly normal and acceptable. ( they too are showing the human condition. )

On Davide Bowie (s) the many faces that frightened my childhood sensibilities and what I wished to have learned sooner.

On Writing stories As a Child… secret Revelations.

On Lightning Storms, Electric Wires, And Tree Tops…

On Japenese Ladies throwing Children off The Edge of The GrandCanyon.

On Boulders And Brain Injuiries.

On Scarring Ticket Takers, The 3 Yearold Mission To Stay Safe From Strangers…

On Knowing you Are Going To Die, and The Lunch That never Came To Be…

On The Preciousness Of Life And Why You are Shitting It away when you Could be Making Copost, The Rich Sensation of Life…. ( )

On making Work Where None Exists ( busying ourselves just because )

On Zero Seperation Of All Things And Infinity Of BeingAll Concepts ll The Time Until We Are Not…

On The Msytical Nature of Existance…

On Verse 21 …. Only I am…

On Writing the Same Sentence 1000 times…

On Rehearsal As Being and Becoming…

On letting the On’s Continue One….

On story…


On Business.

And to know that I am in love with life lived on my terms.

So that is what I want to share with you.

Quality of life has always been important to me and the use of my time and attention to create and live as I wish and desire, the guide.

What is important to you I am not sure, but that’s important for you to figure out and then get clear on and then to go about making it a reality for yourself.

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