…the true life stories of one who no longer exists yet appears to be…
“I really have nothing to say,” you say, and yet you say what you said as you said it, and here we are listening to the silence of what was said. What say you?quote by “Not you saying something that you said…”
Have you heard of Indra’s Net?
It’s more than a metaphor of a mirroring of appearances, though it is that as well. It’s a representation, a model, an inkling of what you are and how the world lives in you, while living outside as well.
A web intersects, infinitely, paths crossing over and over and over, at each intersection a jewel…
Each jewel of this net, is solely composed of the reflections of the jewels around it.
Isn’t that something…
For Members of the guardian and the guru all the wonder laid out upon your mind, your imagination, your brainwaves wobbling with weirdness, the ever unfolding conversation with what was, what is, and what may or may never come to be.
Here, we create a future by creating a past…
On The Web Of Creation…
On Addicted To Love…
On How nice that would be.
On Mystery and the Unknown
On Lucid Dreaming
On Dream Yoga
On Brothers and Sisters
On UFO’s and Aliens
On Insight, Intuition, and Inner Knowing
On Being Turned On
On Sexual Attraction
On Growing a Human Being
On Speed and Quickness
On “Perfect,” penso Ed Wood
On Unconscious and Subconscious
On Absolute Knowing
On Shadows and Light
On God and Gods/esses
On Not Minding
On Love vs. Liking
On Psychology of Possibility
On Miracles of Creation
On Self Worth
On Appreciation and Value Creation
On Crazy People
On The Future
On The Future Now
On Struggle and Suffering or Joy…
On Play and Playfulness…
On Resistance, Procrastination,
On Duran Duran, INXS, and Billy Idol + The Outsiders…
On Hallucinations and Perception
On Constructing Our Realities…
On Augment Reality
On Mixed Reality
On Artificial Intelligence
On Flow and Focus
On Attention and Awareness and Mindfulness
On Hearing Hearing and Repeating and Recall
On Memory and The Mind
On Memory and The Brain
On Creating a Marvelous Existence
On Being Single and Celibate
On Being Single and Sensual
On Pain bodies and emotional holes in the flesh…
On The Senses
On Smell and The Discovery…
On Neurogenesis, Senescence, Stem Cells, and You…
On Being Present To One Thing.
On Choosing Challenges and Make The Rest Easy…
On Reading and Writing…
On Movies and The Movement Of Time…
On Coffee at Midnight
On Seeing What Isn’t
On Dream Characters
On Talking To Nature
On Correction and Discovery ( front foot first… )
On Boxing and Being
On Relaxation, Vigilance, and Cognizance…
On Vision Quests
On Adventures Into Existence
On Nothingness and Emptiness
On The Tao Te Ching
On Racism and Futbol The Childhood Confusion
On Movies and Ignorance ( Fear and confusion, wonder and awe… Papa’s experience and mine, European’s and Route 66 and L.A. )
On Growing Mushrooms and Dying
On Psychology Internships On NDE
On Swallowing Spit and Inhaling Sex
On Choosing One Path For Acquisition and Learning ( Avoiding Jumping all over without learning… )
On Creating Assets of Timeless Nature
On Vagina’s and Sucking The Flesh…
On Flirting With All Of Life…
On Pot Brownies and Cheech and Chong…
On Musical Ignorance And The Wonder Of Discovery or What You Don’t Know…
On Being Drugged and Head Smashing Mysteries ( Charlies and Blue Steel Bicycle )
On Regrets and Resets
On Living 5 Days In One Everyday
On The Many versions Of You (i.e. People don’t know all of the things you have done or been through and how everyone had their stories, yet few ever know them… ) It’s amazing to realize and recognize that. I really love that about my mom and dad; they were someone before there was me.
On Being a Polymath
On Nothing Mattering And How Confusing That Can Be If You Don’t Know How Magnificent It Is.
On Cocaine and Alberto St. On Cocaine and New Years Eve
On LSD Ocean Pull and Cucumber Cocks and Hannah…
On Marijuana and A Buddhist Nun In Boulder Creek ( And the Right Handed Homeless Girl )
On Ballerinas and Mythic Grace
On Sex and Bloody Sheets and Being Okay With Whatever…
On Being Stabbed The incidental Pleasure in Portugal
On Heroin and Relationships At a Distance…
On The Rocky Horror Picture Show and Blood Flow
On 14 Year-old Fantasies
On Masturbation With Friends
On Stealing Midnight ( travels as a child in the darkness )
On Rape and GAD
On Wonder Woman, Down vests, and blue jean dreams…
On Death And Redundancy
On Authority And The False Voice of Certainty
On Fairytales of Your Own Making
On Questing The Unknown
On Recreating Reality…
On Beginning… Always beginning and then begin again, everyday…
On Rituals, Habits, and Routines and why we are so upside down.
On The Stupidity of People and Progress and Production… ( This will make you more productive… Gag! )
On Laziness and it’s power to transform your life…
On Being The Art Itself…
On Results and being Done Already… ( You don’t want to take the car salesmen with you when you buy the car. You don’t want to take the ticket taker to into the movie with you to tell you about the movie. )
On Faith and Belief and Blind Faith
On Reading This First… I Don’t Know…
On 4th Grade Miss Yale, Joe Martinez, Head Injuries, and Reading…
On How Few Experiences Actually Make Up Your Life… And How None of That Matters But Isnt It Curious? Especially considerring how you choose to live.
On Being Paid For Your Art
On Choosing To Protect your Psychic Space and Those Who Influence Your Path
On Doubtville and The Party You Don’t want To Leave ( This is that place where everyone kind of forgot where they wanted to go and now they are… )
On Being and Becoming
On William James
On Thoughts As Feelings
On Vipassana And The Model
On Sleep aka Uncle Sleepy Head Style ( Thinking about sleeping when I want and really enjoying it. )
On Children Sized Adults, also Known As Family and Friends and Other People.
On Enjoying It All And Hating What I Hate which I don’t.
On Flatulance and The Farts You Miss and The Farts You Walk Away From
On Creating Your Reality And Inviting Those In While Aggresively Closing The Door To Others…
On Being Content For Others To Be Who They Are Without Wanting Them To Be Anything Else…
On Revisiting William James…
On The Library Child Opening The Book on The Future ( This was so exciting to me. )
On Learning For The Pleasure
On Teaching Myself How To Write.
On The Best Terribel Joke I’ve Ever Told…
On Dying With Laughter And Why Witches Don’t Wear Underwear…
On Writing and Being Me and Why You Now Have a Construction Of Who You Think This Creature Is.
On Laughing While Crying
On George Clinton and The P-Funk All Stars And The Columbian Sex…
On Life Dancing You and Music
On Acting and Chocolate Chip Cookies
On Having a Mission
On Surfing and Seeing Day II
On Two Fears, Dropping In and Doing A Backflip..
On Being a Body and Being Embodied and Living The Respect To The Body Love
On Making Money And Meaning… Playing the Game while pretending Its not a game except with those who know it is.
On Dream Characters Who Aren’t Quite Right…
On Doing Your Best To Be A Creator Not A Critique..
On Not iving A Fuck and Reahearing The Fuck Out Of It.
On Why It’s A Good Idea To Scream At Your Girlfriend Once And A While ( Thinking Andi and The Car Ride )
On Why That One Girl Won’t Leave Your Mind… And That One Too…
On Doing Drugs and Enjoying It…
On Wanting What You Want Because Yu Want It And Everyone Else Can Go To Hell With Their Opinions Of You… 😉
On Letting It All Flow…
On Giving All Of Yourself and The True Joy of Being Vulnerable…
On Eating Before Bed…
n Causes and Conditions
On Questioning Everything and Why It’s Not Fore Most ( people are exhausted by the very thing that excites you. Why this, what of that, tell me more, how does this, show me this move one more time, I have to ge this, and again… )
On Your First Fart In Front Of Yur Lover…
On Suicide and Friendship
On Being a Ghost…
On Enlightenment and…
On My Impending Death…
On Narcissm and How Wonderful It Can Be… The Story f Echo and Narcissus.
On Going The Wrong Way…
On Spankings And Childhood Troubles
On Debt and The Hilarity That Pursues…
On Lying and Insincere Clients… And why it’s perfectly normal and acceptable. ( they too are showing the human condition. )
On Davide Bowie (s) the many faces that frightened my childhood sensibilities and what I wished to have learned sooner.
On Writing stories As a Child… secret Revelations.
On Lightning Storms, Electric Wires, And Tree Tops…
On Japenese Ladies throwing Children off The Edge of The GrandCanyon.
On Boulders And Brain Injuiries.
On Scarring Ticket Takers, The 3 Yearold Mission To Stay Safe From Strangers…
On Knowing you Are Going To Die, and The Lunch That never Came To Be…
On The Preciousness Of Life And Why You are Shitting It away when you Could be Making Copost, The Rich Sensation of Life…. ( )
On making Work Where None Exists ( busying ourselves just because )
On Zero Seperation Of All Things And Infinity Of BeingAll Concepts ll The Time Until We Are Not…
On The Msytical Nature of Existance…
On Verse 21 …. Only I am…
On Writing the Same Sentence 1000 times…
On Rehearsal As Being and Becoming…
On letting the On’s Continue One….
ON STOPPING HERE BECUSE I am Going To Eat…
And to know that I am in love with life lived on my terms.
So that is what I want to share with you.
Quality of life has always been important to me and the use of my time and attention to create and live as I wish and desire, the guide.
What is important to you I am not sure, but that’s important for you to figure out and then get clear on and then to go about making it a reality for yourself.
You must enter if you are to return…