Let’s take a look at what has the power to transform you, the looking.
The looking into your eyes, while being with that which you want to create, with that which you are creating while keeping a continual focus on being with it…
It’s not about the goals, the tactics, the plans, the little this and that, even though those matter.
It’s about being with the vision you desire more often than not.
There’s a hiccup in this thinking because none of us know exactly how that vision is going to be delivered into our world.
Thus we have expectations about how it will be and if it isn’t how we expected it to be, our eyes often go blind to the joy before us.
I watched one of my clients prove this to herself over and over, but then, as we all do, she would go to sleep and lose awareness of the wonder that lives in the pursuit of her sincere desires.
No mater how much we strategise or think we should do something, it ends up being that life delivers continual gifts and unplanned presents upon the path that is pulling you toward your destination.
As she took to creating what she wanted, she would suddenly be surprised by a connection that came out of nowhere, a synchornicity, and then another connection, and then another.
They could not have been put on a schedule, or built into a business plan.
They are gifts of the mystery of being in motion toward your vision.
But we forget that and start polluting the path with doubt, with insincerity, with neediness, with inaction.
Which gives rise to our transgressions, to focusing on our conceived weaknesses and our past pissy-ness and sour memories.
And we are terribly biased toward our crap, the negative happenings, days filling up thinking about and amplifying the poopy parts of our life, pushing them into our not yet imaginary future.
Our minds, like pigeons in a park dining on peach pie, shitting on everything…
I do love pie… Apple pie…
Future envisioning, planning and plotting, running into the mystery, into the unknown, free from the dragging thoughts of the past and free from anxiety about the future, are the most enjoyable play to participate in.
It’s the most challenging thing to do.
Being with your thoughts, your creating energies, your sincere desires is not easy, even though it feels like it should be.
To imagine the future, to put your mind forward into the unknown and then pursue it with vigor, with certainty, with a mind that is All-In, a mind that refuses to accept any other narrative, well, that is a kind of madness, isn’t it.
Yet, we all know what a beautiful expression it is to live as such.
It takes training; it means creating yourself as the person who is that.
That is who you ‘Be’ in the world.
It’s an every day affair.
I call it an Encounter.
An Encounter with who you are CHOOSING to Be.
There is not truth here, no path to follow, or way to be.
It’s an invitation to listen differently, to your world, inside and out.
Maybe there is something in you that recognizes what I am saying.
You will feel what is true in this for yourself or you won’t.
It’s worthy of exploration, of experimenting with.
Who do you choose to be as you pursue what you choose to pursue?
To being a paradox of power,
It can be powerful to focus for a moment on how terrible your future will be if you don’t do the things you say you must do.
It has potential to be a strong motivator.
As you know, the mind will throw nasty thoughts at you, thoughts about the past and you will believe them.
Now you get to train your attention. Now you have an opportunity to choose to treat yourself in that moment with kindness, ill will, love, appreciation, or a simple neutrality; this matters more than what the mind is tricking you with.
Imagine having gratitude for the nightmares that the mind presents to you.
There is some biological imperative for this negative talk, some self preservation that is taking place here.
Nonetheless, for most people I have found their greatest desire is not just about creating an end result; it’s about who they are being while creating a future that excites them, that turns them on.
In truth that is the greatest adventure of them all, and it is often hidden behind all the things think we want or don’t want…
Your relationship with yourself now, in this moment, this NOW, is always what matters most.
You can go after anything and get it or not, create it or not, attain it or not, and do so in a way that satisfies you deeply no matter what.
To me, that is always the sincere desire.
Time for a walk in the valley of trees, as I have written enough in this moment. ( a picture of one of my many paths in life )