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Café Avilion, After Dear Love, Yesterday, I shared with you a perspective, a way of looking at the self as something not so real if you will. Today, I want to give you another perspective. You are you. I wish I could give you the gift of being 100% who you are, free and unabashedly yourself. No one can do that for you but I will go for it anyways. And I want to do that by speaking to your heart. But first let me set the mood, I am sitting outside one of my favorite writing cafe’s. My old lady friend stuck her head out of her door and said hello. Her door is five steps away from the table I am sitting at. It’s to the left in the video. The breeze is gentle and incredibly comfortable for November. Dirty Dancing is playing in the background. What else is there to say? So much more… There’s something within you that moves beyond all the constructs of yourself, beyond that voice that never stops chitter chattering. It’s so much who you truly are that if you go against its best interest, it will rebel by making you feel as if something is wrong with your life. It’s quiet and also loud but it doesn’t speak English, Portuguese, or Chinese. It speaks Greek. No it doesn’t… It doesn’t speak with words. It makes itself felt. It is your heart speaking to you, your spirit if you will. Have you ever had anyone tell you that you need to get out of your head and into your heart? What do you think they mean by that? I don’t think most people have a clue about what it means. Most likely they mean, “You are not doing and behaving how I want you to. Change!” You see, living from the heart isn’t a useful phrase unless you already know what it means. Here is a meaning that I think is more direct : Fully Embody Your Lived Experience, free of your thinking mind. Live with heart. In an email I sent you some weeks ago, months maybe, I spoke of living a life with heart, walking a path with heart. “All paths lead to the same place, nowhere. But the path with heart is a completely different lived experience to nowhere”. That is a paraphrase from Carlos Castenda’s “Don Juan”. One reason I am so adamant with you, so strong in having a conversation about who you are and why you are here in this world… And why I am continually going on and on about that voice that pretends to be you even though it isn’t… Is for this very reason, I want you to know yourself and I want you to be fully alive as you make your way, traveling your path, being true to your “Heart”. But how does one do that? I will not give you a how. You see, I don’t know what it means to be spiritual, to be completely free, to be liberated, to live life solely from the heart. I have had many glimpses and it feels that I am living from that space and place of beingness, often, more than most so I’ve been told. But who really knows. Nonetheless, I believe it is one of the reasons I can embrace death and all the feelings most people hate to face and it’s why I can be in complete joy and a simple ecstasy as well. It is why I can talk openly of suicide and the will to live, about beauty and the ugliness that exists within me and within you… We contain it all. We are immense. Laughing while crying… I want to verify a few of my ideas and I want your help. I’d love for you to respond to this email and tell me what you mean when you say, “You need to live with more heart” or however you might phrase it. Also, I want to work with you as part of a transformational experiment to live with and from the heart. It is not a coaching program or any kind of program at all, it’s an ongoing deep dive into experimenting and experiencing, confronting and embracing, emotional intensity while opening your heart to live a fully embodied creative life. I am talking about the art of existence, the art of being you, of freeing you to live fully as yourself. You must know that I will not tell you what to do or how to do it. You are incharge of that. You are the one who has to be willing to play and to live in the question. I want you to go with me into a world of Not Needing To Know… Imagine, if you will, being so unafraid of life that you could fully embrace the unknown with a few simple words, “I don’t know, but let’s find out.” I don’t know what my life would be like if I allowed myself to…. I don’t know how I would do that… I don’t know if it will work… I don’t know how to love completely… Let’s find out. Stay sexy, stay wild, stay beautiful, stay as you wish… www.EmericDamian.com/love-romp p.s. I will be exploring the idea of living from ‘Heart”, from full embodied experiences of life. Here are some words to run through your mind: Avoidance, Ignoring, Emotional Intensity, Embodied, Feelings, Thoughts, Self, Spirit, Intuition, Insight, Fear, Doubt, Anxiety, Power, Love, Openness, Compassion… Unconditional kindness to yourself… Life is difficult, but so damn beautiful it would be a shame to miss living. p.p.s. I was gathered with two friends today, and we were speaking of stress, of ageing, when she said, the month has gone by as if it was just a day, then he said, my mother, said to me yesterday that one day she was 60, she blinked her eyes and was 76. He just turned 60. I love you so much. You might not believe me, but even in writing these words to you a tear welled up in my left eye. So ridiculous, só beleza. Here’s a link to the video… |